Until I started AA, I never gave religion much thought. I suppose I leaned towards non-belief in a god or a higher power simply because the concept of worshiping, praying to, or thinking that an invisible friend had a personal interest in my well-being sounded silly. It did back then and still does today.
Looking back to the beginning of my recovery from alcoholism, I have come a long way. I remember the first year of sobriety seeking balance in my life. I was aware of the importance of balance or, as others call it, emotional sobriety. Over the years I have become aware that self-care, healthy boundaries, and connecting with others and myself allow me to maintain balance. And when I feel balanced, I am more content and able to live in the moment.